Have you ever tried making yourself a promise and convincing yourself that you can do it? And only few days later, or few hours later, fail? Then stand up again, telling yourself you can always try again, there's a second chance? Just a bit longer than the first time, maybe few more hours later, fail again?

It sucks...if you haven't experienced that, good for you, don't try.

Failure is the most defeating feeling I can ever have...

Especially when your failure hurts, not physically, it just hurts yourself and others who care. It hurts you even more.

I failed in doing something today..after given tons of chances, like monopoly, going round and round the 'chances' but you just get fines and debts, never something good, and you realize the deck gets thinner and thinner. Now you wonder... Maybe the game hates you, maybe this is not your day...all sorts of excuses you try to find! Just for the sake of proving yourself innocent, not because you insisted with rolling the dices by throwing them up n let them fall freely.

"No, no. It can't be that. I'm sure I'll get a good 'chance'!"

Slowly the lands have houses n hotels on them, almost all the lands are sold out, you start losing your money too, but you kept that one thing, that is the way you throw the dices. You wonder if you really will get a good 'chance' by the end of the game, no one knows. You now have only $110 left, are you still going to keep throwing the dices the way you did or change it for a try? Any odd number will send you to someone else's land that costs a fine of at least $200. You thought maybe you'll get a bit lucky this time, who knows? So you did it again! The dices dropped on the board, rolled for a bit, stopped, summed up to 11, odd number..a fine of $350. Whether or not you have to leave this game, depends if the owner of the land is willing to spare you from the fine. The owner, is the person that has been asking you to stop throwing your dices that way, but you insisted anyway. Will he give you a second, or after losing count, an nth chance? You look into his eyes that are full of compassion, he looks back at you;

"Do you think you deserve another chance after given so many?"

So..do you....?

Sigh......I really am sorry...

I have gotten my P license..I've been driving before I came to UK, I drove a whole day and got summoned without a summon bill from the JPJ, hence I sorta got fooled to go to the JPJ headquarters and find that I need not pay ANYTHING.. although a bit annoyed that I got fooled, or punk'd in a sense =.= still thank God that my license was unharmed and I need not pay anything, a lesson I learn maybe?