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Friday, 09 October 2009

  • I wonder if i could type chinese on Xanga...

    I was in the shower, pondering upon my life..a bit bit guilty cuz reaally hard to get myself into the goodie girl shoes, do devotion evyday. Im still struggling ARGH! but today I'm gonna make a public commitment, I WANT u guys to HELP me..keep asking me even if i feel annoyed, to increase my tendency of communicating with God. it seriously isn't enough! even praying evyday isn't enough..it's just like feeding God with alot of prayer requests, thanking Him, and?? not hearing Him out? maybe in a more disgusting way, feeding our pet (i'm not saying God's our pet) continuously and not letting it poop.


    ok that should satisfy ur imagination. XD

    Just now, like an hour ago, I was in the shower. songs came into my mind, 1st was Sing, Sing, Sing..then the 2nd was a chinese song, I remember it from my early childhood days, when i was 8? boy i so love this song..but too bad i never know the title of the song, countless people i asked, none know the verse(i don't even know if there's one) n title. but here's the part i rmb, really strengthens me. (subtitles included..XD)

    耶稣我主 生命的神
    慈爱怜悯 亲近我心
    在你荫下 充满怜爱
    每当我需要你 哦主
    你的怜悯涌流 耶稣
    你的怜悯涌流 耶稣
    你的怜悯涌流 耶稣
    你的怜悯涌流

    Eng:
    Jesus my Lord, Lord of my life
    Your love and mercy, comes close to my heart (melts my heart/warms my heart)
    Under Your wings/protection, I find Your tender love (sometimes used to describe one's love when see a kitten)
    Whenever I need You O Lord
    Your mercy flows, Jesus (x3)
    Your mercy flows.

    It sounds A LOT better in mandarin..sometimes the wonder of language is that it doesnt fit really right when translated..anyway, I love this song :) gonna do devotion now! weeeeeee!!! keep me in your prayers guys!

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

  • Failure...probably the most defeating feeling one can ever have..

    Have you ever tried making yourself a promise and convincing yourself that you can do it? And only few days later, or few hours later, fail? Then stand up again, telling yourself you can always try again, there's a second chance? Just a bit longer than the first time, maybe few more hours later, fail again?

    It sucks...if you haven't experienced that, good for you, don't try.

    Failure is the most defeating feeling I can ever have...

    Especially when your failure hurts, not physically, it just hurts yourself and others who care. It hurts you even more.

    I failed in doing something today..after given tons of chances, like monopoly, going round and round the 'chances' but you just get fines and debts, never something good, and you realize the deck gets thinner and thinner. Now you wonder... Maybe the game hates you, maybe this is not your day...all sorts of excuses you try to find! Just for the sake of proving yourself innocent, not because you insisted with rolling the dices by throwing them up n let them fall freely.

    "No, no. It can't be that. I'm sure I'll get a good 'chance'!"

    Slowly the lands have houses n hotels on them, almost all the lands are sold out, you start losing your money too, but you kept that one thing, that is the way you throw the dices. You wonder if you really will get a good 'chance' by the end of the game, no one knows. You now have only $110 left, are you still going to keep throwing the dices the way you did or change it for a try? Any odd number will send you to someone else's land that costs a fine of at least $200. You thought maybe you'll get a bit lucky this time, who knows? So you did it again! The dices dropped on the board, rolled for a bit, stopped, summed up to 11, odd number..a fine of $350. Whether or not you have to leave this game, depends if the owner of the land is willing to spare you from the fine. The owner, is the person that has been asking you to stop throwing your dices that way, but you insisted anyway. Will he give you a second, or after losing count, an nth chance? You look into his eyes that are full of compassion, he looks back at you;

    "Do you think you deserve another chance after given so many?"

    So..do you....?

    Sigh......I really am sorry...

Friday, 25 September 2009

  • Today..i deleted the folders in my email that holds my important mails and documents from various universities that i applied to, and offered me a place..i used to think Sunderland is really bad, probably cuz i've been brain washed for a bit, but now it's not too bad actually..(maybe i'll think otherwise later *shrug*)

    i deleted a folder that has all the mails from Manchester..

    i deleted a folder that has all the mails from Cardiff..

    i deleted a folder that has all the mails from Nottingham..

    i deleted a folder that has all the mails from London SoP..

    i deleted a folder that has all the mails from UCAS too..

    there was a bit of sour feeling inside actually..but i have to get rid of the thoughts that says "if only i had more money..i won't be stuck here"..even the Brits come here! so seriously, how bad can this school be? probly the price REALLY is attractive, but Brits aren't that poor ok, they could have gone for better but settled for Sunderland? this school must have something..

    Seriously thank God for changing my mindset, i didn't like thinking the way i used to..pray that God will keep my mind n heart bigger to accept things that are coming my way, pray that God will bless me n my friends, help me be a testimony to others, help me stay faithful, help me be good. It's not easy, but i'm gonna do my very best, to have more time with Him..(really pray that i'm not just saying it but put it into action..) it's cool now..i'd love to stay in Sunderland and have fun with my friends.

    So yup! Yapp Sim Yoon is gonna stay in Sunderland for at least 4 years for now. :)

    p.s: Cardiff is gonna remain as a dream..

Monday, 21 September 2009

  • Following up the "You Know" blog..

    I have gotten my P license..I've been driving before I came to UK, I drove a whole day and got summoned without a summon bill from the JPJ, hence I sorta got fooled to go to the JPJ headquarters and find that I need not pay ANYTHING.. although a bit annoyed that I got fooled, or punk'd in a sense =.= still thank God that my license was unharmed and I need not pay anything, a lesson I learn maybe?

    After the whole day driving, my left side of hip ached like when I was back in form 3..tat's bad news..but it was ok after a while..Thank God again! 
  • 3.50am in Sunderland

    Hey everyone, yes I'm in Sunderland already..today is supposed to be my 2nd day of orientation. But I'm STILL experiencing jet lag, got up at 3am in the morning (goodness..... =.= it's annoying ok, when evything only starts at 10am) and hence i'm online..

    I got up, feeling quite chilly, but good thing my windows are closed tight..my room's on the 2nd floor, the highest, so i have a better view of things around me and less burglary chances..haha! suddenly i heard ppl talking, so i looked down, saw these two girls went clubbing til now, they walk back freezing, can see her thin legs shaking when she walked. You see, she was wearing sleeveless, heels and tights? (i forgot abt her fren's attire but shouldnt be too far from hers) Then after they walked passed my block, the sound of wind was SO strong, i looked across the reception building, the huge tree is shaking like mad..u know, rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, it's not like that! It's more like rough winds trying to blow off all the darling buds of May.. oh here comes more ppl back from clubbing..they're probably drunk since they shout and talk super loud like no ones' business..

    You see, i think going clubbing is not reli that bad, as in not like what evyone thinks, but it COULD be bad, it reli depends on what u do at the club. Clubs here are not like those back home, they REALLY club..those ppl back home are not that daring, they respect u if u say no, but here im not too sure. cuz i haven't been to one so far! haha! but i'm not looking forward to it..probably some day i would go with my friends and check it out, at least to KNOW..

    Anyway dudes and dudettes, pls pray for me and fui yin and all the Malaysians here if possible, let me tell u why. After 2-3 days here in Sunderland, I've seen enough people walking around with a stick of cigarettes, man and women..even people in this hall. back home, they smoke to look cool, when it's totally so not cool (smelly and disgusting yellow teeth), but people here smoke to keep warm..at least one of the valid reasons. I must say the people here, mostly are friendly, and they are so friendly that they keep asking me to go club with them =.= It's been raining ytd and maybe these few days..not too used to the weather yet, hopefully we'll survive winter  Lectures haven't started, but I'm sure it's not gonna be anything near A-levels or SPM time..so pray for us, so that we can excel in all we do, we won't have to repeat or resit any exam, and do God the glory. Keep us in ur prayers ok! Cuz the culture is different the temptation to fit in is strong..pray that God will place more good friends around us. and keep the Christian spirit strong as well, we dun wanna be ashamed of God's name. 

    it's now 4.10am

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